That I was too closed. I think I've proved him wrong.

I've let so many into my life lately and I've allowed myself to love and to care. I've fallen in and out of love, I care for so many and the fact that I understand now that I will always have someone standing by me even if it feels like I am standing alone.

One of my best friends is who is a constant reminder of that I am not alone, I find it calming to hear his voice when we chat and to get a hug of him once in a while makes things better. Friends and the hugs that they have to offer are the best way of feeling a bit better when you're all out of energy.

Just recently I moved to Carshalton, I am living with two lad there that I had never met in my life till I went to see the flat, and even then I only met one of them, Josh. Then a couple of days after saying that I'd love to live there I also met Neil, they are both great lads and they make me smile. Josh even makes me take a break from the real world once in a while, it's just calming having them there when I get home, even if I don't talk to them or anything I can just hear them around, it makes me feel safe. This is the flaw of having grown up in a big family... you get use to always hearing something around you.

I am going to Iceland in a few days time, I am going to be spending time with my family, even when I've been asked to work the first day I'm in Iceland to do a little work which isn't too bad, getting paid for one day that I spend in Iceland. I can even take my brother with me doing those things.

Anyways... I better keep working!

Love. V