When I was younger I often felt like when I told someone that I loved them I'd loose them. Which wasn't so far off the truth as for a while when I was younger I lost lot of people that I cared for and loved. I felt like everything was being taken away from me if I allowed myself to love and care.

I sometimes still feel this way but in the last year and a half I've become more open. More at ease of loving and caring... and allowing those who matter know that they do. I couldn't even tell my own siblings that I love them, with the exception of Elísa my youngest sister.

I find it overwhelming sometimes when people tell me that I matter to them, that they love me or care for me. Sometimes it brings me to tears and makes me want to crawl into a deep dark hole rather then say it back even though I feel the same!

I've got a big heart and there are lots of people that I hold dear but I tend to forget to let them know... to let them see how much they matter to ME.

So... maybe you won't believe me... but I DO CARE.